The Spark that Starts a Healing Journey
Healing begins where willpower ends.
In an ideal world, a healing journey begins from a desire to evolve, to become healthier on all levels, to acquire a deeper connection with oneself, more peace in life, more wisdom, and better relationships.
In reality, I doubt this ever - consciously at least - the case.
I have rarely met someone who starts a sustained, sincere healing process (purely) from the mature longing to become a better person (not speaking about occasional sessions to clear a block or gain insight). More often, it begins when one or more areas of life stop ‘working’, when what is wanted feels out of reach, and the version of self one is operating from no longer produces needed or desired outcomes. In essence, they stop respecting the version they are and want to be someone different because they are not getting what they want.
What sparks a healing journey is the sobering moment of recognition that the current version of self has played its role, and there is nothing new left to experience from staying the same. If something different is wanted, they will have to become different.
There is courage in this foundational step: admitting that while you may not be responsible for how you were shaped, you are responsible for what you do next with your life. No one else can extract you from where you are, and, in that sense, the only way out is transforming yourself, because the life you are trying to reach requires someone you are not yet (fully) being.
What usually follows is a mental plan for how to change, a vision board, new year resolutions, wishful thinking, setting goals and then trying to transform through willpower. With regards to some goals in your life transformation can be possible through these means. But there will be areas were this is not possible.
When it’s not possible to transform using logic and planning, it is because there is something inside that is resisting taking the new, desired actions. These are deeper inner parts that block movement. Some are shaped by trauma, still seeking safety and comfort (for example in overeating, meds, alcohol or drugs) rather than growth. Some are inner child parts, operating from earlier stages of development, where adult responsibilities feel overwhelming or unfamiliar. In other cases, there might be parts still anchored in an earlier version of yourself, one that never fully matured in certain emotional or relational areas.
Then there are ego structures that resist humility and connection, shadow aspects that unconsciously sabotage progress to protect you from discomfort, failure, or change and, finally, there are deeply internalized (cultural) belief systems, inherited ideas about worth, success, identity, or duty, that (unconscioulsy) shape your behavior and can keep you acting in alignment with expectations rather than your actual needs or truth.
So in these cases, it is not a lack of discipline that keeps you stuck, it is inner fragmentation.
That is where healing comes in. When one wants more out of life, but is unable to become the version that is capable of reaching it because of inner fragmentation.
The healing journey essentially is a journey back to wholeness, a journey where your parts are brought to health again, and united in a way that they work together harmoniously, taking you towards a life that is truly right for you.
The practical tool to do this with is shamanic energy healing.
This technique ‘pulls up’ everything that is buried to the surface without analysis, so it can be seen, felt and released.
If you feel you’d like support with that process, you can reach out to me. I work as a shamanic energy healer and help people overcome deep patterns in a direct, experiential way.
