AD(H)D to Presence

The Healing Energy Massage is an exquisite, 3-hour, deeply personalized experience that represents the highest level of therapeutic touch. It incorporates both physical and energetic healing, replenishing your vitality, clearing your blocks and lifting your mood.

What is the Healing Energy Massage Journey?

The 3-hour Healing Energy Massage is an unparalleled experience of deep restoration, designed to renew you on every level of your being. Working simultaneously with the physical, emotional, and energetic body, it goes far beyond relaxation. Through a carefully tailored combination of therapeutic techniques, the treatment softens the body, calms the nervous system, helps release deeply held tension, emotions, stagnant energy, and long-forgotten memories, while reawakening the natural flow of your vital energy, creating space for greater vitality, clarity, and aliveness.

This is both a profoundly therapeutic and deeply nurturing experience. While it can support emotional release and physical transformation, it is equally about receiving the highest level of care, attention, and presence. Every session is tailored to you and guided with sensitivity, respect, and impeccable boundaries, creating a space in which your body can surrender completely.

As a true full-body treatment, no area of the body is overlooked. With mindful, professional touch, attention is given not only to commonly held areas of tension, but also to regions that are often neglected despite their importance to our vitality and well-being, including the hips, inner thighs, and pelvic area, where appropriate and desired.

This holistic healing experience nurtures a deeper connection between body, heart, and energy, restoring a sense of ease, presence, and inner alignment. You emerge feeling vibrant, awakened, sensual, and fully embodied. More open to life, more connected to your senses, and more attuned to your self in a balanced, grounded, and integrated way.

  • L.V., 30, filmdirector

    Healing in the City truly transformed my life. Previously, I was constantly battling a storm of thoughts and impulses that often overwhelmed me. Despite years of trying various traditional therapies, the inner turmoil persisted. Fay changed that.

    Fay, the driving force behind Healing in the City, takes a unique and personal approach that gave me a feeling of trust/confidence during each session. From the very first session with Fay, I noticed a difference, an inner peace that only grew throughout the trajectory. I now feel much more connected to my body, act from my own feelings instead of my thoughts and feel more comfortable in my own skin than ever before!

    Thanks to Healing in the City, I finally feel grounded, calm and balanced. My gratitude is immense and I encourage everyone to give themselves this gift and experience the amazing results.

  • N.S., 40, photographer and filmmaker

    This trajectory changed my life! My name is N. [anonymized by Fay], 40 years old and my life didn't want to succeed until 2023. I couldn't get anything done, suffered a lot from old patterns, adhd and procrastinated on all my goals. I didn't live in the here and now. I came into contact with Fay through the internet and entered the process with open arms without any expectations. It is impossible to describe what happened. I had to get very used to getting from my (turbo) thoughts back into my body. To learn to think more spiritually and especially to feel. The sessions were crazy and special at the same time. Now several weeks later the storm has changed into calmness, I can set goals, start things and above all feel what is good for me. I dare to trust my intuition again and tackle things. Do you still have doubts? Do it now, thank me later :)

  • G.W., 31, soon to be lawyer

    I followed a trajectory with Fay and wow how very special this was!! I didn’t really know what to expect before I started so I just tried to go with the flow, and this approach is what really opened up a lot. The focus for me was on getting a new job and overcoming the barriers I experienced while looking and interviewing for a job. We discussed and worked through blockages I knew I had or didn’t know I had, that kept me from going for the job and the future I wanted. From anxiety, becoming an adult, fear of failure, to expectations I had of myself, holding on to a past that no longer served me and childhood experiences that - without me realising - still affected me and my behaviour. The sessions with Fay were really special, I felt really seen and at ease, and I felt no judgement to opening up and sharing my inner thoughts. If you are ready to really do some inner work and healing, to live your life more authentically and ‘free’ I would really recommend you to have Fay by your side to do it!

a 7-month personalized, dynamic journey

FAQs

Each session begins with a consultation to discuss how you’re feeling, what’s going to happen, your healing intention, and any injuries or sensitivities, ensuring a personalized, focused, and comfortable experience.

The session combines various massage techniques and energy practices guided entirely by your healing intention. Rather than following a protocol, Fay intuitively responds to what your body communicates, allowing the quality of touch, pressure, rhythm, movements, and techniques to continuously adapt in line with your intention.

The massage is a blend of deep tissue, Ayurvedic oil massage, tantra (if the pelvic massage is chosen), marma point stimulation, shamanic energy work, and de-armouring. Through a wide variety of touch, movements, and energetic techniques, your body will experience many different sensations, in support of your healing intention.

Throughout the massage, Fay works with the physical, emotional and energetic body, relaxing and activation your vessel, taking on and releasing emotions that no longer serve you & clearing energetic imprints related to your healing intention.

The session concludes with dedicated time for integration, allowing your body, mind, and energy system to absorb the work, integrate the shifts that have occurred, and acclimate to the new frequencies now flowing through you.

What can I expect?

The AD(H)D to Presence Trajectory lasts 7 months.
The Sessions take place in Amsterdam and online. It is possible to do all sessions online, but then a substitute for the massages will be proposed.
€ 4.500 incl. VAT
If you run your own business the costs could be deductible as coaching.

Practicalities

Come to the session clean: no drugs, alcohol, meds, cigarettes, too much caffeine or heavy foods in your system.

This work is not suitable for everyone. Sessions may need to be postponed or modified in cases of acute illness, infection, recent surgery, pregnancy, certain cardiovascular conditions, active psychiatric crises, or other medical concerns. Internal pelvic work is only offered when appropriate and may not be suitable in cases of pregnancy, infection, recent childbirth, recent gynecological procedures, or unexplained pelvic symptoms. If you are unsure whether this work is suitable for you, please get in touch before booking.

Preparations/ contra-indications

  • Removal of the core problem(s) that your AD(H)D is causing you;

  • Take away your resistance for simple day-to-day tasks;

  • Take away your resistance for doing deep work and/or finishing your projects;

  • Clear out your mind, so you aren’t distracted by your thoughts anymore;

  • Clear out emotional residue so you aren’t distracted by your emotions anymore;

Benefits

  • Clear our insecurities and make you (re-)gain self-respect, -love and confidence;

  • Help you go from reliance on medications, to reliance on yourself;

  • Transition you from restless and distracted, to relaxed and focused;

  • Grant you a sense of control over yourself and your life again;

  • Unblock you so you can go after your desired future;

  • Give you all the knowledge & tools to rid yourself permanently of your negative AD(H)D symptoms.

“My experience at that table felt supernatural”

R.S., 33, screenwriter and director (report of 5 sessions for adhd and severe depression)

From flirting with suicide to self-leadership

I sought help for three years, especially for my ADHD, but I was unable to find good help from any mental health practice or therapist and was constantly put on a waiting list. Several times I stopped my search because of this, but in the meantime I slipped deeper and deeper into a downward spiral and at the end of 2023 I reached a new low. Working, exercising, cooking or washing dishes were activities that I could no longer manage. Every attempt I made to get back on track, led to even more disappointment. For weeks I stayed in bed, wandering aimlessly around the house, and...I binge watched series after series. Suicidal thoughts were common and offered me a sense of peace. Deep down I didn't really want to die, but I felt desperate, extremely desperate and lacking in confidence myself, and with it the hope for an 'okay' future, completely lost.

I saw Fay's offerings on Facebook. Honestly, I couldn't imagine anyone without a psychology study would know what to do with my persistent and difficult problems, but I thought: it might not help, but at least it will not be harmful to try. During our introductory meeting, that feeling of skepticism diminished somewhat. I liked her views on ADHD, they were stimulating and fresh, and the things she said 'resonated' (as she would say) with thoughts I had and issues I was struggling with. During the first online session I was introduced to her treatment method, where feeling and visualizing play an important role. This method forms the basis of the sessions. The intensity of the the first session brought out a lot of pain, and sometimes I was unable to fully surrender to it. It made me anxious and insecure. Fay assured me that this was a normal part of the process and she did her best to give me a sense of security. Still, I was glad the session ended. She also assured me that that was normal.

During our second session I was very tired; the night before I had let myself go to sleep with a bottle of wine and had not slept until the morning. This was possibly due to dealing with a lot of traumatic issues in the first session, which I had released, and I felt a lot of resistance for the second session. I took that resistance and fatigue with me into the session and eventually, after a little mental breakdown from me, we decided together to discontinue the session.

The following days I doubted a lot whether I should continue with the sessions or not, but the alternative was back into the shit, so I decided to go for it. I strained myself to be as fresh and clear as possible with the retake of session which was more about resistance and less about trauma and such. I learned there that all the things that were making my life difficult were parts of me and that I was not "the problem" myself. I literally took parts of myself out of me and gave them “a chair” in space, with a voice. The parts were given space, love, understanding and recognition, which apparently was much needed, because Holy Moly: I felt better and better as the session went on.

Partly because I had to give space to the heaviness by feeling it out completely, after which I felt so much lighter! Something really started to change. Fay also felt the feelings with me, which helped as we were both going through the same experience. From that moment I knew that I no longer had to doubt about whether or not to continue. The contact with Fay now also felt completely familiar and good. I really had the idea that she understood me and all the things that were going on and if she misunderstood something, it was easily put right.

During this session we also drew up a to-do list together with mini-tasks for the next 3 days: I had to clean up my desk and room, pack my gym bag, and prepare some food, compose a to-do list with all the things I needed to do for my projects, all with the webcam on. Fay smoothly guided me through this, making the ever-so-tricky beginning, so to speak. After this, she continued to apply her method of externalizing parts in me until I could answer yes to the question "do you feel like working out?" That with that the session lasted much longer than usual was not an issue for her at all.

Immediately after this session I went to the gym, for the first time in 3 months and with pleasure too, and it was already quite late. I felt good and was amazed that after such a long period of heaviness and lethargy I felt like doing something again and had started to move.

The next day I fell back into old patterns, lying in bed a lot, and so on. But the day after that I went out with confidence and exercised again. I felt good, until a stupid little thing happened with someone at the gym (which, by the way, was no big deal, but still made my new sense of self-confidence collapse like a house of cards).

Fortunately, that same day I had another session with Fay, which at her suggestion we scheduled shortly after the last session. The incident became a useful input for the session, which was all about self-love. A timing that couldn't have been better. In the previous session we took away the heaviness; in this session I charged up, so to speak, which may sound strange, but I really experienced it that way. Also some beautiful/ mysterious stuff happened during the session, but I will keep this review down-to-earth.

After this session it really went uphill, better and better. Occasionally I still had a down day, but I accepted that without slipping further.

The following days I could start with renewed energy and fresh courage, I could handle much more than usual, and I slowly began to function again. Instead of my usual tendency to want to do everything at once (only to get stuck again and get nothing done), I now took small steps.

I also consciously chose not to do too much in a day. It felt as if I was gradually gaining more and more control over my own life, something I may never have really experienced. Moreover, I was getting more and more excited about everything I had to do. The lesser days also felt different than before the sessions, as if they had a certain function. Namely, in my inner dialogue, I noticed that I was searching for solutions in a constructive way, thereby mapping out a route away from the downward spiral.

I was really looking forward to session 4, but this session felt less intense than the previous three. Afterwards, I doubted whether it "worked" or whether my expectations might have been too high. However, one or two mornings later I was washing dishes with music on from my adolescence, and then it happened. I felt a huge jolt of energy flow into my system and suddenly felt incredibly powerful. Overwhelmed with emotion, I began to cry; it was an experience that I could not comprehend and is otherwise difficult to describe, but really confirmed to me that everything I was doing made sense.

The sessions have a kind of continuing effect, I have noticed, similar to a computer program running in the background running various processes.

The last session with Fay was a very different one, at her home, and even though she had already talked about it in quite some detail, I still didn't know exactly what to expect. We began by discussing how I was doing, which was surprisingly delightful to tell, since I normally hated that question because of my bad moods. Then we went over my vision board (my “homework”) after which she went a few more times into certain aspects, as we did in the other sessions. As she gave instructions, I caught something about seeing images, but my mind was distracted because I was worried about my coffee breath (because we were going to work with breathing techniques). Fay picked up my concerns and assured me that I didn't need to worry about that.

Using breathing techniques, she put me into a kind of trance and I did indeed begin to see images. The journey began with the proverbial movie of my life flashing by. Despite the fact that I consider myself a pretty down-to-earth guy, my experience on that table felt supernatural. I learned a lot about, let's say, my origins. Fay not only guided me, but she also solved the problems I carried with me in my energy field and talked to me throughout the sessions channeling various information about me. As you note, I don't want to go into too much detail because it was all very personal. But when, three hours later, I woke up again, I felt reborn. As if I had reset and said goodbye to my old self.

Afterwards, I needed some time to recover and realize all that had just happened. Fortunately she gave me that time. In the follow-up conversation, Fay mentioned a few details that showed that she had picked up things of my "trip," which was a little freaky but at the same time very nice and affirming.

For the rest of that day, I decided to take it easy, which was also necessary to get my feet back on the ground for a while again. The next day I didn't do much either, another relapse day really. But by now I was used to the fact that the day after a session is always a down day. This dip lasted a few days, however, but after that I actually got into an upward spiral (yes, apparently that exists too!).

It has now been ten days since my last session, and I am now living my life nicely. I look back with a very good feeling back on the whole journey I took with Fay in a short time. Much of what Fay discussed has come true, including the fact that the last session can still stir up some things in the following time, which you then have to deal with. But that is precisely why I think it is effective. The sessions enable me to resolve all the sticking points, and sometimes you have to go through the rough stuff to do that. What prevails, however, is wonder and a blissful feeling that I am back in control of my life, that I am functioning again.

Undoubtedly there will still be challenges that will come my way, but on my own I really could never have reached this point. I am very grateful that I met Fay, like a saving angel, at exactly the right time in my life. She sensed everything flawlessly, remained patient where desired and empathized with me. I am aware that I am not the only person who can experience life as a huge struggle, and I sincerely hope that Fay can help many people like me to a more bearable existence. Since each individual is unique, the result will be different for each person.

My advice to anyone who wants to work with Fay: go into the sessions without expectations, be as open as possible and try to go for it completely. I think this approach has really contributed positively to the results.

Fay, thank you so much for this!

Love, R. S